Cherish people around you :'(

Heyy guys,I would like to share one story of mine with you all. There's a guy who I regretted a lot for not cherishing him when he's around..... He was a very good guy.... He played piano for me when I'm down... He hugged me tightly when I'm cold..... He was worried when I'm at outside tonning with friends..... He taught me how to solve Math questions when my PSLE is coming.... He put jacket over me when I fell asleep on table when I'm studying.... He was there for me when I quarrelled with my ex and cried..... He was the one telling me that my ex isn't worthy of me..... He was the one feeling pain and useless when he see his beloved girl(me) was crying..... He was the one kept quiet,not saying anything when I hurt him..... He was the one pen-knife his wrist for me when I chose my ex over him.... He was the one doing so much more than a boyfriend should do when he isn't even my ex..... He was the one suferring when he see me crying badly not for him but for other guy......

After a long period,he finally gave up.... And I held him back again and he thought I was giving him one chance to be my boyf but I didn't...... I still patched back with my ex in the end....Imagine what he went through for a lousy girl like me and how much he suffered and did so much things for me..... He was a sweet guy right?... Yet I ... still chose my ex over him..... I really really regret for not cherishing him.... Now he's already attached and he will not come back again... Never will.... Well,I derserve this all.... People say 'A person don't derserve to be treated as a opinion' but I treated him as a opinion... I only thought of my feeling but not his.... I thought I was already hurt enough when my ex left me but how about him?...... He must be feeling worse than me....

I always emo when I listen to 'Payphone' cause he was the one played this song for me..... This song reminds me of him..... Whenever I miss him,I would listen this song.....

Jaymond,if you see this,I'm sorry for what I did..... I really really appreciate everything you did for me but it's already too late.... And I love you </3